Usapang Tsyuper(tricycle version)

Riding in a public transportation is really interesting, you can hear/see/create a lot of stories and most of them are interesting ones. It even sometimes make you realize something or teaches you something.

This post is about a conversation of the driver(tsyuper) of a tricycle and his brother. This conversation was unintentionally overheard by me because I was seated in the driver's seat.

 If you already rode a tricycle even once you'll know what I mean. 

Anyway I posted this because I can relate to their story even though partially.I even  felt  a bit guilty on my part upon hearing their conversation.

A part of their conversation was like this:


Driver:   O musta? ta ngunyan kananaman lang nag pahiling? dai ka man lang pati nag tetext. hadit na pati si mama saimo.. sain ka nag iistar ngunyan?

Brother : *nods* , sa kabarkada ko..

Driver : sa kabarkada mo? ta dai ka na nag uuli sa harong? paparapahadit mo si mama.. atang may hilang to!

Brother:  tsk, aram nya naman na dai nya na dapat ako pag para intindihun .. dakula na ako para para haditan nya pa.

Driver: alangan. ta dai ka palan nag tetext ma kang celfone? atang grabe na ngani pag sakit ko kay mama tig papara pagabat pa nndo pag mati nya.


Brother:  tsk, may mga maalaga pa man bga duman.. (forgot the rest of what he said)

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I can relate to the conversation above because I sometimes treat my  parents like that especially mom. Like the brother of the driver, I sometimes don't give importance or even put into consider their worries for my safety. I somehow feel guilty and sorry when sometimes I even get angry when they worry for me, just a realization from that scene. 

I hope I'll not be that arrogant like the driver's brother. I don't like that I'll be worse like him.

I think I will end this post here. Just want to share this and just want to say

                                   SORRY, ma and pa for being shitty. I know you just worry for my own good.

-photo credits to http://farm4.staticflickr.com/3347/3510070625_9728c01dec_z.jpg

Happy Birthday You Bastard!

First and foremost happy birthday to me... 

and goodbye teenage years....

But what should I really be happy of?

Should I be happy because after 20 years I'm still existing?

Should I be happy that I already passed being a teen?

Should I be happy that I was created by God? if He created me..

But before I answer that let me first narrate what happened on my birthday and my pre-birthday celebration.

Friday: Pre-birthday Celebration

pre-birthday celeb at my house

       I and my college friends went to our house to celebrate my pre-birthday celebration. It was originally scheduled on my birthday but due to time constraints and personal reasons, it was moved on Friday

    The plan  was to go to our house at lunch time somewhere at 12 noon because we've got a meeting for our sp at 3 pm but decided not to come on the later.

foods at my party

As usual 12 noon wasn't realized because those people are very very good with not following the time agreed upon and love to arrive late. We arrived at my place around 2:30 pm . 

  They gave me a brazo de mercedes , one of my fav cakes, from bakers plaza as their present for my birthday.   

              THANKS A LOT ! love it a lot... even ate the half of it :)))

      Anyway Karen with the help of Clarisse and Mhards cooked the chicken and the fries this is because they insisted that they want to cook at our house.  

     At 3 pm when the second batch arrived at our house.

     

To cut the story short, they invaded our house from 2:30pm until 8:30pm  and by 11:45 pm  I and my parents finished restoring our house.

PS: sorry for my father's making fun of you tet..

Saturday: The Not so Boring Day 

I'll not greet myself again since I already greeted myself on the topmost portion of this post.

Only a few greeted me this day but that's ok because the ones I'm looking forward to greet me greeted me early in the morning..almost.. 

 Aira greeted me first. I asked her a real hug for my gift since it's been a long time we haven't seen each other but because of constraints, she gave me a virtual hug instead. Not quite the real hug but I'm satisfied with that.

 I don't really have a plan this day , Aira suggested that I ask someone close to accompany me in my birthday. 

I tried to do her suggestion but sad to say this person wasn't available.

 So i tried another thing, I treated  some of my friends which are available. Sir Manch , ate Cid , Tan2 and Joel ate lunch with me. I treated Sir Mik2 and Kuya Allan snacks in the afternoon.

In the evening  xing, koren  and khrisna for accompanied me at greenwich to celebrate my birthday at Greenwich. They had a little surprise for me . Even though I know that the "surprise" will not come , I still hope for a bit but in the end the "surprise" didn't showed up. Anyway Thanks na rin .. Nice try :)

Even though  what happened this day wasn't my first plan ,my celebration of my birthday turned out good..  

Before I answer my question.. I would want to thank all the people who became a part of my birthday and may pre- celebration of my birthday... Thanks a lot.. I really appreciate what you've done...

Since I can meet great people like those on the picture above ...THE ANSWER IS YES...

Thanks to them I have the reason to continue to aim for more birthdays and to be happy on my  those days..

FOR THE LAST TIME BYE TEENAGE YEARS...

HELLO TWENTY....

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOU BASTARD!

In memory of a friend named SUSHI...

Approximately 7pm of the 29th of October of the year 2011  Sushi's life ended..

Her life story .....

sushi on my birthday celebration

      She first came to our house when i was in 2nd year high school forgot the exact date. She came from one of our cousins. She was brought by our father as a surprise to me and my brother.

      She was very small when she first step on our house, just the size of a big mouse.She easily adapted to the new environment.  She became our house stress reliever. She does funny things.

      One of these funny things is she "contracted" some of our neighbor's cats "para apihin niya at mag pakitang gilas samin". At first we didn't noticed this "contract" not until we observed that sushi is sharing her meal with the cats. I think she made good friends with the cats. Another funny thing about her is that her courage is only present when your near her. She will only "attack" or bark at something when we are looking or at least near her. And when she does this "magpapa kampi siya saiyo". She does other intriguing and funny things but the two things above is the most funny of them. 

sushi's first pregnancy

      She is also fond of my other pets, especially the fowls. She likes chasing them while barking at them. Hai.. Memories comes back to me ; it's so sad that she's not here with me anymore.

      After a few months passed and two new dogs came to our house namely sashimi or Bruce and Potchi.

Bruce came first to our house and became sushi's partner but due to their height difference they couldn't mate. Which became the reason for Bruce to be frustrated.Bruce being frustrated is a bit funny because he's just like a man , doesn't want to it, having mood swings, murmuring things i couldn't understand etc etc.

coby garfield and raffles

        And then Potchi ,a half Pomeranian half japanese pitz dog, came. Potchi became Sushi's second partner. and unlike Bruce they had puppies. They became a very noisy and very mischievous couple.

      After few months Sushi became pregnant with Potchi as the father.She bore 3 cute puppies namely Coby Raffles and Garfield.

     After a year Sushi was again pregnant and bore 3 cute puppies again but sad to say they died. Two of them died because of the flood the one that survived which I named Otter died after a few weeks from an unknown reason..

     And just this year Sushi became pregnant again.But she died because of it. We still don't know the real cause of her death but we suspected that the puppies inside sushi was already dead which caused complications to Sushi that caused her death. I know that I have also fault in her death because I didn't pay her much attention on her early days of pregnancy I only bothered to pay attention when i felt somethings not right with her.

swollen face of sushi

                 I feel guilty :(

 In the last few days of her life I gave her almost all of my attention even slept at 1 am just staying with her and talking to her that everything;s gonna be alright. Feed her vitamins and my food because I thought she was just losing energy because of her babies. One evening her face became swollen. The day after it i went to a vet to ask about her face because it  suddenly became swollen. She said someone just bit her and that hot compress would do. I was so stupid to think that everything's fine and that she didn't need to see the vet yet. But I was wrong. I should have taken her to the vet. Maybe her life was saved if i did that.

                             

       I'm an idiot and a failure pet owner :(

last bath of sushi

my selfmade nest for sushi 

On her last day.. I bathe her because I made up my mind that the next day I will bring her to a vet. I even made her a new nest. I thought she was improving because her face now isn't swollen but one thing I notice is she couldn't walk. Thinking that this was only cause of her very large tummy and lack of energy I disregarded that.  It was past 6pm when I left sushi in her nest. I took a bath and sleep because I was tired on taking care of Sushi. At around 7 pm a strong rain dropped. At around 8pm when i was about to feed her I saw her lifeless body. Rigor mortis was already present but the body's still hot meaning she died at around 7-8pm. It makes me wanna cry because I think if I didn't left her maybe she's still breathing , fighting or even if she died she will not die alone. 


      My eyes are teary again .. :((( .. I just want to tell you I'm really sorry for leaving you that moment.. for not giving my best attention to you when you needed it.

I will never forget you Sushi..

my pet dog..

my playmate..

my stress reliever.

a family..

a close friend..

RIP  SUSHI....

Irrelevant Answers

Have you ever gotten your self to an instance wherein someone shares something to you..
and your only reply is ok.. with no idea what to say after...


In my case in happens to me all the time..

                  A close friend having problems with her boyfriend asking  what to do..

                 A friend asking for an advise what to do with a certain problem..

                 A friend dumped by her boyfriend asking for comfort.. 

                And just a  few moments ago a friend of mine shared a problem.


     And again my reply : ok ... dumbfounded on what to say afterwards..


DAMN! Why the hell am i like that? Why do i suck at words?

I know some find my problem silly or not even a problem at all but I find it frustrating.




I am the kind of person that when a friend of mine share something or some problem to me, I want to reply back something of use.

I want to say something that will help or comfort them but I can't even think or say any thing with relevance to the subject..

For me not saying any relevant things at times like that is like not listening at all. It's like your taking for granted  the effort of the sharer. And that you don't understand a thing from your conversation with the sharer..It's like you didn't care at all..




I always listen to the problems of my friends but always fail to reciprocate the communication.


-to be continued

Confusion & Frustrations

"Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?..... "




- chasing pavements(ADELE)







I am really confused...




to be continued...

three sticks of cigarette and a bucket of beer

Quoted from my favorite song of dong abay entitled Senti

"Ok lang sa akin, 

abutin man ng umaga 

lahat ay gagawin, 

para ka lang, mapasaya 

Mahal ka ba niya, talaga?

Ako, 

mahal kita, mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal 

mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal"

Still intoxicated...

I just got home.. attended the concert of dong abay , a singer, on wharf galley rock cafe with my close friends namely Malean and Reuben. I just had my greatest day ever... with sarcasm...

I'm thinking of what to use whether a poem or just a narrative to describe my day..

The story goes like this:

 A scheduled lunch

A text message containing a bad news

A shitty lie

A scene I wouldn't want to see






An unwanted anger

A bitter ice cream

A place that should have been mine

A pack of cigarettes

A fake laugh

A bucket of beer

A halted momentum




A shattered dream

A day fucked up.

A gloomy evening

           






          A night stranded in a flood caused by a stupid rain..

                    killing time, waiting in vain..

         Mosquitoes flying buzzing and biting

                    hour passed without me knowing

       Eager to talk but no one's there

   

                  just my computer and raindrops everywhere

      Trying to convince that I'm enjoying what am I playing

       

                but what I'm really thinking is what are you now doing

     Hunger strikes causing my stomach to flare

              feeling pain but still doesn't care

    Yearning to tell you the truth seems to be a burden            

 

             Stupid brain stopping all of a sudden..

    Twenty minutes had passed but I'm still waiting

   

           hoping you'd come be back waving..

   

    

     clock strikes nine, its time to go..

          sad that tonight I had to undergo ...

      to a gloomy evening..  

          a night made without you....