Published to drafts

I don't want you to see this , don't want it to let it out

but it doesn't matter this is a thing you'll not care about.

I don't know if I'm doing it wrong and being a fucking idiot all along.

But i'ts like your telling me go somewhere else to where I belong.

Am i being too paranoid  Like the one's taking steroids?

 Is this anxiety untrue like the news on the tabloid?

This sucks! this sucks! This sucks!

Being again a desperate wanna be..

Writing this poem that's considered as trash.

Which will be again published to drafts.

2 days of being the guy named OLAN'S

Just today we finished our  2-day Senior's retreat that was held in Mater Ecclessiae .

It wasn't bad as I was expecting it to be. It wasn't even boring. Honestly this retreat is the best "spiritual life" activity I have done. This was also my most participated "spiritual life" activity.

Meet the normal people I met in school but in another degree or I must say in a higher level of intimacy.


I've been enlightened a lot and even got a new principle in life because of this event :

" Life isn't about being a worthy man for your life but being a man that makes other's life worthy because of your life."

In general I give two thumbs up to this event..

Way to go Ate Glo our facilitator and our prime entertainer Mr Andrej Valiente aka "Kuya Jobert"!

friends of jude

3 Iced tea glasses Straight

Valentines day is a day for lovers to show their love to their loved ones but for us it is the day of our exam of one of hardest subject AI.  But after the exam the mood changed from academics to romance.. it's time to carry out my plan.. a plan to surprise someone I like..before the this day, I already invited her to dinner on the 14th. 

BUT A SERIES OF BAD NEWS CAME!

• The roses that should be purple wasn't done
• it's raining in the morning, 
• Shakey's don't permit for reservation that day 
• it was the last day in accordance to sp defense reservation 

I thought FUCK! A BAD OMEN!

But still I tried to go with my plan.. Rushed in changing the flowers. The flowers now became pink and red.. Went to look for a cute cake in SM with a friend and found one. So basically the first part is already complete.. Now for the second part.. Looked for something cute to write on a letter but failed. Went to my school for ideas then we went to Padangat ,a gift shop, an their we found the final piece the Soccerball.. So with a friend I finalized my plan.. after that he asked me something..

                                        Friend: Anu padi ang gut feeling mo?

                                        Me: Dai ko aram padi

                                       Friend: Mau man kayan padi. Eu o dai man lang yan

                                        Me: didn't answer for a while then I said.. Garu negative padi bahala na

The plan was:

1. give the roses , cake and first gift in arrupe after her class
2. eat at Shakey's and there the second phase commences
3. serve the second gift, the soccer ball with the letter inside it while serving the food
4. don't allow it to be opened not until you two finished eating
5. and the most nervous part -- the opening of the box and reading the letter*

*drank three iced tea glasses straight and biting a tissue paper while she was reading it.

At the end of the day the outcome was I think better than expected the series of events also went smoothly. Onin the Shakey's guy crew which I spoke to in the afternoon, "reserved" us seats, the final gift was given at the right time, she liked my letter and even said it was sweet, and ultimately 

I spend the whole evening beside her :)

Hope she really liked my surprises :)

my simple surprise

Acknowledgements:

Carol , tan, mhards, zarah for helping me in my plan

photocredits to http://purplequartz.tumblr.com/

Just three stupid poems

Delusionary Boy

A cold dry breeze touches my face

waking me up from my empty gaze

thought that I was with you

But, again it isn't true.  

For the truth table says you AND i will never be true.

Coz I didn't have the courage to say what I feel for you

since the day I started loving you.

Left out alone, waiting for nothing

just hallucinating that I'm with your being

Hopelessness, restlessness and a lot of sadness

caused by my stupidity and cowardice.

I know this is foolish but what can I do?

this is only the method where I will be with you

And you and I will always be true.

The bell rang, and I have to go.

Leaving  her at my dream land until tomorrow

But don't worry I'll be coming back

Because this is the only thing I can do. Fuck!

Uncertainties


Again, an event where you and I are together
but why can't i feel any better.
Yes, you and I are just centimeters apart
but it's like that you were not there from the start


The closer I get to you ,
the farther I realize the distance I need to walk through.
The more hopeless it is, the harder I try.
I'm also asking my self why?


I want to talk to you, but I don't know how
there a lot of things I want to tell to you, but where are they now?
Scumbag brain Why you no cooperate?
Please make my ideas apparate!


Uncertain, the best word that describes

what the things you had in mind.

I don't know! Did you like what I have done?

or you treat it like a trash in a trashcan.

What must I do ! What must I do!
To know what I mean to you

To solve these difficulties
and end these uncertainties. 

The Stone of February 

-Not Yet Finished-

Acknowledgements:

Ate lizzie  :)
Ate Karen :)

Today we must fight: STOP SOPA AND PIPA!

SOPA and PIPA is a trending subject in the internet  this past days. Even though this two bills was proposed in the congress of USA a lot more earlier, this subjects caught the netizen's interest only this past few days. Just this January 18-19 2011 Wikipedia had a movement called the blackout , a movement against this bills. This movement caused for netizen's to give importance to these matters.

But what really is SOPA and PIPA?

how will it affect the internet?

READ.KNOW.ACT

For more details on what is it click the links below

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Stop Online Piracy Act aka "SOPA"

Protect IP ACT aka "PIPA"

VIDEO:

ARTICLES:

• Even though Megaupload's case isn't really because of SOPA and PIPA this case is much alike on what will happen on these uploading sites even though it's really not their fault but the fault of the users.

• Wikipedia's protest

• to support this cause click this link SOPASTRIKE or this

OPINION:

In my personal point of view basing from what i read on a lot of articles, videos etc these bills will really greatly harm the Internet. Firstly because this will hinder the "freeness" of the internet. SOPA and PIPA would put the burden on website owners to police user-contributed material and call for the unnecessary blocking of entire sites. Small sites won't have sufficient resources to defend themselves. Big media companies may seek to cut off funding sources for their foreign competitors, even if copyright isn't being infringed. Some foreign sites would be prevented from showing up in major search engines. And, SOPA and PIPA build a framework for future restrictions and suppression. Sites no matter what they are will be shutdown if found with even one content which violates copyright. The other useful information even though without any violation will be included because of just one content. You could watch the video or read articled which is posted above for other harmful effects of these two bills.

THIS IS MY WAY OF OPPOSING SOPA AND PIPA.

 WE MUST UNITE TO PROTECT THE  WELFARE OF THE INTERNET! 

SPREAD THE WORD TO OTHERS!

PHOTOCREDITS TO :
http://img.perezhilton.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/stop-sopa-and-pipa__oPt.jpg

http://blogs-images.forbes.com/davidewalt/files/2012/01/wikipedia-blackout-stop-sopa-pipa.jpg

http://futurepredictions.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/SOPA1.jpg

Is it really a Guide Question?

Yesterday , A person returned my reflection paper and forced me to resubmit it for the reason that I didn't follow the guide questions for that reflection paper.  

So a I asked myself

So I look up in the internet to see the meaning of a guide question.

And look what I found out :

guide [gaɪd]
n.
    1.

       a. One who shows the way by leading, directing, or advising.

       b. One who serves as a model for others, as in a course of conduct.

    2. A person employed to conduct others, as through a museum, and give information about points of     interest encountered.

    3.

          a. Something, such as a pamphlet, that offers basic information or instruction: a shopper's guide.

          b. A guidebook.

    4.

         a. Something that serves to direct or indicate.

       b. A device, such as a ruler, tab, or bar, that serves as an indicator or acts to regulate a motion or operation.

   5. A soldier stationed at the right or left of a column of marchers to control alignment, show direction, or      mark the point of pivot.

   6. someone or something that instructs others or shows others the way.

question [kwes-chuhn]

 noun
       1.
          a sentence in an interrogative form, addressed to someonein order to get information in reply.
       2.
           a problem for discussion or under discussion; a matter forinvestigation.
       3.
           a matter of some uncertainty or difficulty; problem (usuallyfollowed by of ): It was simply a question of time.
      4.
           a subject of dispute or controversy.
      5.
          a proposal to be debated or voted on, as in a meeting or adeliberative assembly.

 
references:


http://www.yourdictionary.com/guide
http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/question

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/guide

Farm to Fridge

The video will explain the point of this post..  So just watch it