farewell..

As i end my day last night ... a song caught my attention...i don't remember the name of the song but i think it's b213 by Blem... anyway as i listen to this song the chorus of this son i remembered someone.. maybe you know who she is <> automatically my mind was set to post a blog today.. and this blog is to be a farewell for her...


i offer this poem ..

Thoughts on saying goodbye..

I never expect you'd come into my life
I didn't even expect you'd accept me for who i am
since we never talk that much
and i knew nothing about you.


My heart is full of joy
Everytime you respond
although it always leaves me a question to ask
i can't seem to understand what's this i feel
i guess it's because they tease me a lot

i'm not even expecting for anything
more than friendship
thinking that i would only end up getting hurt

coz you've always been special and inspire me a lot

it's sad having thoughts of you leaving soon
it was only yesterday when i met you
and now you're here toi bid goodbye

i can only hope someday our roads would cross
to reminisce of the time we had back then

the story started on our 3rd year..

one day our principal had a meeting with all of the fourth year.. a piece of paper was pased on us i don't know whats the sense of that but i also wrote my name on there and my number.. a name caught my eye.. it's her name.. in my mind<>

the next day i texted her..<>


in our room mars .. is making fun of her..<33pan> so i joined him to ... then eventually i made aquaintance<> with her.. and almost all days i texted her...

then one day xing , i , naxcz, khrishna, etc..<> went to the back of the avr.. we were chatting about something but i didn't remember it.. then suddenly she came..or she was already there??<> when i saw her there and something happened to me i suddenly became conscious and silent..

when she was left suddenly i became again talkative..


after that happened i suddenly became serious and taught in my mind .. huh?? tanu aku natahimik..?? what happened to me???..


then the next days i began feeling something about her but i didn't understand what it is.. everytime i see her i became happy. etc.. <>

then finally i new what i am feeling.. but i wasn't sure about it.. so i kept it inside me first because i'l verify it first..

days past and i prove it..

then christmas came.. at the day of the christmas or the next day ata un.. i told her that she's my crush.. at first she didn't believe it but eventually she believed me...that day also i learned her birthday in that day.. we've agreed that we will have a late exchange gift to each other.. but doesn't figure out when it will be..............at last we have a date.. jan 31 .. and we've agreed it both.

when the day came.. i gave her a starpendant<> and a necklace.. but she doesn't have the gift for me...<> but she said she'll give it to me the next day..<>

many months had past we became close friends but we only communicate at text.. a day came and told her if i could court her.. but she said no..< awts.! noooo!> i became depressed because of that.. my friends comforted me and said many things.. but still i am deppresed..

weeks had past.. and my mood regained.. but another problem arrived .. the prom is soon to come..< wtf!! problema nanaman..> a question always comes to my mind.. babaylihun mo xa?? until a day before the prom my mind still asks this..

then the prom date came.. and my question was answered.... and d answer is NO!..maybe because im too torpe or i'm just afriad.. but i don't know the real reason.. after the prom i texted her to apologize if i didn't dance her. she accepted it.. maybe coz she don't even think that i would dance her..

then our school days came to n end.. in summer i always texted her but she seldom replies..

then we became 4th year..

at first i didn't know that she was again my classmate.. so i prayed that she'll be my classmate again together with the xing and com. and God answered it .. be cause she became again my classmate.. yahoooo!!!!!!!!!

i thought that this she'll allow me now to court her but i was wrong... she again refused< awtz.. not again>.. and again my world was crushed..

another problem also occured she was lined to a my friend.. you know who he is.. i am sometimes jealous of him but i didn't show it..

her birthday came.. i gave her a stuff toy.. his name is Briggs.. and a junior black forest cake...<> but i wasn't the one who delivered it to her ... they were xing and khrishna<> her reaction seems that she was shocked and happy about it.. , hayz salamat nagustuhan nya man..>

then soon chrismas party will come... but i wasn't the one who got her name.. it was Pierre.. <> then christmas party came.. when Pie gave it to her my classmates applaused.. so that i can show that i'm not affected by that i also applaused... <>

the next will be prom..< amp again problema nanaman> again the question again came to my mind.. <>

prom date came.. at first i planned to be her last dance .. but something came out.. when i was dancing her to the last 5 songs Jim said if he could borrow her..<> then Jim gave her to Pierre < amp sabi na.. tanga ku talga> dancing with xing we watched them 2 <> then after the prom again i am depressed..

many days had past but still may hang over about what happened on the prom still kept on breaking me..

then xing commented in my friendster not to be sad..and to move on..

the day where i move on came.. and my mood was again good..

but another problem will occur..

graduation is coming fast.. and this is the problem... as i sleep at night i always thought of her.. and this always come to ruin up my mood and become depressed..

graduation came.. in this day i have move on and accepted that she not for me..and will never be mine..

to end this post

i am thanking you for being my inspiration and friend for 2 years .. i wish you luck in your college life.. d mo man san ku malingwan 2los .. hmm ...............

thank you for all and goodbye..