Tuesday, December 28, 2010

I think we're running out of alcohol, tonight i hate this fucking town!..

I'm a bit intoxicated with alcohol right now..but still I want to blog this.

Today's the alumni homecoming of NCSHS.. I attended it.. batch mates met...friends and close friends reunited. I had high hopes of I enjoying this evening with my friends.. But again I was wrong..

     Before I went to the alumni homecoming Xing's , my close friend, boyfriend. ow they broke up so technically he's not his boyfriend so lets just call him her ex. Anyway back to my story. For an unknown reason He sent me a message. I was really dumbfounded because first are we close? As far as I remember we only talked once and we only spoke 5 words or less i guess.  Second because the message is about me giving his gift to Xing.. duh! He knows that I know he did something to Xing and he knows i hate people hurting my friends.. or does he know that? Up to now I still don't know the reason why he picked me to be the "bridge" for the gift. The bottom line is I was the one who gave his gift to Xing because of my super useless convincing powers.. yeah im bad at convincing people..and that I failed to grant Xing's wish that his ex will be the one to give the present.. So yeah failed! what a  nice start :) 

     After the talk with her ex I and my friends went to NCSHS to attend the homecoming.. It was good but honestly I didn't really enjoyed the homecoming.. When we're hungry we agreed to eat  at. Oops.. we didn't talk about where will we be eating.  We just walk and walk until we came to Bigg's but before that the sad incident came.

      Upon walking the streets of Magsaysay,Naga City Malean spotted someone at first I didn't notice what she's telling but after a little while i got it.. AND POOF! I saw her. and then  saw her that she's with someone. At first I thought ow. Ok.. I guess that surprised me but I guess I was even more surprised that it hurts a bit... honestly i thought that i wouldn't even care, but the effect is more than I expected...It really crushed my mood for the evening .haizt.I know at first I have very low chance.. but this makes it negative ...Yeah I suck!.. 

     After that I told Xing about the event she said "As lang yan". I know. but still it hurts..haha stupid of me. In a little while we arrived at biggs and there we ate our dinner. Macaroni Salad for me and for Xing.

       The main event followed after that. Drinking time. At first we had hard time finding a spot where we can drink  until we came to westpark. At first I thought I want to see her again and I don't know why I that thought came to my mind .but she wasn't there anymore. We drank a couple of bucket of Red horse, an alcoholic drink first with Lapilli, a group of men in my batch, and then another group arrived and so on. Until I saw the group of my highschool crush. 

      after that I saw her,my highschool crush. yeah again.. a crush.. I know i have a lot of crushes but this one's different because I like her in the past.. hmm maybe up to now.. dunno.. Anyways.. Seeing her made me feel a bit good made my mood up a bit. And I even texted her that it's really nice seeing her tonight. 

     In a little while the groups had gone somewhere else.Up to the time that our group, Xing and Co. are the only ones left in our table. That time we loosen up a bit and each of us shared something.. After xing's story about her stupid ex...yeah he's fucking damn stupid. is JOl's turn, and that's the first time jolynson ever shared something about his life, problems etc.. and im a bit sad for him. but i think he now learned his lesson and making things right now so good for him.

    After drinking our last shot, we went home. We parted ways. I waiting for the tricycle to go played my mp3 player. The song baby come on by +44 was the one played on my mp3. and that's how I got the title of this post. and even my stat..

  "And I think I just fell in love with her
But she won't ever remember, remember"

I think that's it, my mind is clouded.. thanks for the jamming Xing&Co. and my other batchmates.

and yeah I'm again awake..waiting for something to happen.. but i guess that wouldn't happen..

and the song continues..

"So please take me far away
Before I'm melt into the ground
And all my words get used against me.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Happy bithday Jesus and Jessee

First of all I want to greet Jesus and Jessee a happy birthday..

For 2 years now, every afternoon of Dec 25. we go to Max's(avenue square branch) to attend a birthday party (children's party) of the kids of Ate Jinky, a co-worker of mother.

I really like attending to this birthday party...since I like kiddie birthday parties.. makes me reminisce my childhood :)

Another reason is  i like kids and since this is a kiddie party a lot of children attends this event... I like kids not because I really like them but because im fond of making them cry .. haha..it really makes up my day...Yeah im evil >:)

Another reason is the MC in this event is always the same.. which is obviously my crush :)

 My last reason is I have really nothing to do so.. I just attend this event.

This year(2010) I have two cousins(kids) and my mother accompanying me to this party.. and yeah i hate having kids with me ... hassle promise!.  

Anyways it's ok... it was removed by the cuteness of the celebrant ... yeah shes so cute...I sometimes like kids especially when their cute...but mapili ako sa mga bata so i doesn't mean na cute ang bata physically cute na siya for me... basta.. Anyways the celebrant passed my standards so she's sooo cute for me haha..Parang sarap nyan kurutin at paiyakin :)

But the cuteness of the celebrant wasn't the only one who contributed for me to write about it... A certain game in the party really made me laugh.. hmm not the game itself but a certain part of it.. The game is the Bring me!, the typical bring me game..Anyways what made me laugh is when the MC, the cute MC @_@, ask to bring me A MOM!, hmm a certain kid ,dunno whether she knows the mother, suddenly gets a mom which isn't hers.. upon the return of the mother to her daughter , her daughter cried out loud.. really promiz...as in total cry! haha that made me laugh really hard.. her daughter thought that her mom left her and exchange her with another kid.. haha .. Wala lang.. it's so stupid.. hmm sige pag bigyan bata pa lang.. haha..

I texted Ching, a friend, about Jessee. and about how cute she is and how much i want to have a kid like that(parang nabibili haha) . and she replied "nyc. I want her pti.. gbu na ngani nix. haha" .. wala lang.. natandaan kulang... and i even replied give a woman so i can make na  haha.. :)

 I've having hard time to think what to post here.. and obviously my mind isn't working... So that's it ..wala na akong maicip .. but she's so cute talaga... and also the MC cute din xa... kaso sayang i have only one clear picture of her(MC). the one on the top right.. jessee and the MC ...


Waah i want to have a kid like her or a lil sis sana but i know it's impossible...  waaaaaaaaaaah..... :)

Happy Holidays, You bastard! PART 1

at last my parents went to sleep..

time to blog ....

First of all  I want to greet everyone a merry Christmas!

For the atheist happy holidays! and for the agnostics either of the two.

Hmm my christmas? a bit similar to past years.. solo mode.. Last to sleep.. doing nothing interesting.. the difference is im coding even up to now..

but it's better this year..

First because for the first time that person replied to me.. that was the first time i had communication with her even though only through text and didn't bother to reply after she knew who am i..

Second I discovered that im not really not that weird hmm in this case I suppose.I'm fond of eating pasta without any sauce or whatsoever but the irony is I always help in cooking pasta with sauce. But this day i found out that im not the only one who does this and i didn't only found one person rather i found two.. first Mae my cousin , i think it's because we share some genes anyway the second person is our parish priest.. yeah! our parish priest.. Both of them would not eat pasta if it had sauce with it..hmm for once try eating pasta without sauce, maybe you'll like it too..

Third the reason why i am really happy hmm maybe a lesser feeling than happy ,ow i know ,satisfied in this years Christmas eve, at last the person came to reply to my posts and even liked one of my post to her.. Yeah it's so shallow .. So what? it canceled out the negative things and feelings this evening so walang pakialamanan ! Im hoping that should reply in my pm's but it didn't happen.. it's ok ..maybe she's partying already and thats good because at first she doesn't feel the Christmas spirit.At least I think i help  her realize or something..or maybe she have other reasons..

anyways christmas gift?... as of now i only got two ... from my close cousins and my parents.. I'm hoping that there'll be more when i wake up later..ow i forgot the there's a third one.. my life haha.. from God... Anyway what i really want to have this christmas is... hmm.. more time to spend with you..i think? haha..as said in the song of biggs "ang tangi kong hiling ay ika'y makapiling ngayong pasko.. ngayung pasko " haha.. awts lss.. (Mareact nanaman jan c malean haha).. and a laptop for gaming of course.. pero kahit un g first one lang haha :) haizt.. hopeless haha..

 i guess that's it time to sleep ....

@edit : weeeee I think God heard my prayers at last she's talking to me again :) partey partey! oops coding na pala ngaun hai.. bwisit na buhay to....ang malas anyways MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Online Songs

At kelan ka pa natutong offline-nan ako? HOY! hahahaha! PM ka pagnaka-connect ulit. :P
The wall post I had from Malean. It's actually not for me but for some other person . Right Malean? haha :)

Anyways Im a bit pissed of right now  but thanks to Malean, my mood improved.The reason for me being pissed of is connected with the title. hmm.. if you got it then good. if not sorry but i will not really tell the reason behind it..i mean literally..

Anyway I really hate it when people don't tell you anything, if you had done something wrong or what or "nakukulitan na" ,i forgot the english equivalent for that, or whatsoever, and suddenly treats you unkindly(wla akong maicip na ibang term eh) for a reason unknown to you. It's a bit hard on the part of the one treated "unkindly" because he/she doesn't know why the fuck is he/she treated like that. right?.

It felt really bad on my part, I have even  something good to tell panaman sana but it was ruined.I just wanna talk to you , you  can tell me your busy or not in the mood or fucking pissed off with me naman. right? So next time please tell something first before doing something.. Hindi naman ako mang huhula diba?

Hai.. Im going to do my project sana hai..bukas nalang tuloy...

Thanks ulit malean.. haha

terms by Malean:

 LOL                    =                   leaving off -line
 BUKOL              =                  bulate, uto ka, OFFLINE...


Confusion & Frustrations

Wtf is wrong with me..

hmm.. I'm still confused what to do... if it's a wall post or just a message.. what to message to put.. or even to bother posting or sending a message haizt.

Im really confused.. arg!

wall post?


dont do anything?

wall post nalang kaya

o message nalang kaya

dont do anything?

parang mas maganda wall post


dont do anything?.............................................


why am i experiencing this stupid dilemma? 

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! im really stupid

ayun wall post nalang..bahala na haha.. katangahan :)

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

You've got mail

It's really true that even though you have a very bad day life has it's own way of making us smile.

        In the past 2 days Im really having a bad day. Why? because first my programs are not working, second i'm waiting for something to happen but doesn't happen, third I bored at the house etc.. and then last night my 8Gb flashdrive that contains all my files including that ones i have been working right now suddenly vanished! YEAH!  Up to know i still don't know whether it's lost or something..
       This morning I'm checking my mail because I'm expecting a mail from someone but again it didn't come. Anyways upon checking my spam folder two new mail : two 419 fraud mails, if don't know what that means just search the net.

       The first mail contains the typical 419 fraud mail, telling me that i have a deceased love-one which i barely new blah blah and that the person mentioned has left me a huge amount of money etc etc.. DUH! No interesting about that mail.

        The second mail is the one that caught my attention. It's below.


My Dearest one,

Hi, My name is Lina Justin Yak, 23years old originated from Sudan. I decide to contact you after my prayers, I really want to have a good relationship with you. My father Dr. Justin Yak was the former Minister for SPLA Affairs and Special Adviser to President Salva Kiir of South Sudan for Decentralization. My father Dr.Justin Yak and my mother including other top Military officers and top govaernment officials had been on board when the plane crashed on Friday May 02, 2008.
You can read more about the crash through the below site:

After the burial of my father, my uncle conspired and sold my father's properties to a Chinease Expatriate and live nothing for me. On a faithful morning, I opened my father's briefcase and found out the documents which he have deposited huge amount of money in one bank in Burkina Faso with my name as the next of kin. I traveled to Burkina Faso to withdraw the money so that I can start a better life and take care of myself. On my arrival, the Branch manager of the Bank whom I met in person told me that my father's instruction to the bank was the money be release to me only when I am married or present a trustee who will help me and invest the money overseas.

I have chosen to contact you after my prayers and I believe that you will not betray my trust. But rather take me as your own sister. Though you may wonder why I am so soon revealing myself to you without knowing you, well, I will say that my mind convinced me that you are the true person to help me. More so, I will like to disclose much to you if you can help me to relocate to your country because my uncle have threaten to assassinate me. The amount is $5.6 Million and I have confirmed from the bank in Burkina Faso. You will also help me to place the money in a more profitable business venture in your Country.

However, you will help by recommending a nice University in your country so that I can complete my studies. It is my intention to compensate you with 10% of the total money for your services and the balance shall be my capital in your establishment. As soon as I receive your interest in helping me, I will put things into action immediately. In the light of the above, I shall appreciate an urgent message indicating your ability and willingness to handle this transaction sincerely. Please do keep this only to your self. I beg you not to disclose it till i come over because I am affraid of my wicked uncle who has threatened to kill me.

Sincerely yours,
Miss Lina Justin Yak

       By the way if you have receive this mail delete it it's a scam .
but if you wanna read it it's ok..

      I don't know to you but for me this is one imaginitive person writing. Why? because he/she came up with a good story even though it's not that good even with some gramatical errors and wrong spelling .Anyway that's not my point my point is it's unique.

       Maybe it's a bit shallow but it made me smile. Why? because for the first time i receive a fraud with a nice kind of story. You can even think that it's like a short story.
       I come to think where do this people get this ideas, the facts etc. It seems that it's almost true. I give them a praise for the stories they made it's good but not for the fraud their doing.

If your bored maybe you could check this site containing some of the 419 frauds.

That's it. boring mode  again.. maybe i should just clean the house to make myself busy...

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Everytime I look for you

          The start of the day was fine. I woke up at 9:00am doing my daily routine watching sponge bob and cat dog in the morning. Because of that I thought the day would be normal or even better than normal.

          But I was wrong, the day sucks. Why? because in an unknown reason i suddenly missed a person. I kept thinking of that person almost every minute this day.. I even tried to watch 3 movies but it was a failure.I still kept thinking of that person.

          Every 10 mins I checked facebook if that person's online and  it was stupid.. from 11am up to now im still waiting for that person to be online even though i know that person will not be  hai..really stupid but im still waiting ..I even stayed up late doing nothing but staring at the chat bar waiting... waaaaaah i hate this goddamn feeling..I become stupid again..and again this will add up to my stupid eyebags... hai amp!
          I hope sleeping helps me.. hai.. and i hope more i can sleep tonight...

stupid evening.. and stupid chickens making noises , its not even morning hai..


Monday, December 20, 2010

First date

After a long time, i got a chance to update my blog again.Yey !

Im planning to do a movie review/reflection for the movie Hachiko A dog's story(american ver.) but for the mean time I'll blog first about what happened yesterday.

Technically speaking I just got my "first date" yesterday even though it was a friendly date. That was the first time I have went out with a girl with just the two of us.

Anyways here's the story:

On wednesday, correct me if im wrong Irene, I've been thinking to watch a movie.So I searched the net on what movies are showing that week: My amnesia girl,tron3d,tron, due date.. hmm im thinking of watching due date.. Then suddenly Irene went online. Ow I forgot to introduce Irene, she is my philo 3 classmate and also maybe a friend err.. we had exchange movies and chat for sometime so let that makes us friends i think so let me remove the maybe , she's a friend of mine anyway back to my story. So she went online i greeted her, then I remembered that Irene too hasn't watched My amnesia girl so this is where the idea began. To make the story short I invited her to watch that movie.

After 3 times of changing schedule on Sunday which was yesterday, it was materialized.

At 2:54pm (sm time) i got at sm. After a few minutes I saw malean, a close friend, she said she will watch tron,a movie, and shes just waiting for her comrades to come after that we had a chit chat.Then irene text me if im already there.. I said yes. She said shes coming.. OK.. hmm 3:00pm. irene's not still there.. its ok. 3:04 not yet here, Malean reacted,"aba pinapahalat ka ah", because she knows Im an impatient person and Im strict with time and I hate waiting, but I said it's ok. A little while, Malean said "Yaon na kaiba mo hali na ako" , at first I didn't see Irene, I asked her "sain man" then i saw her. 3:09pm time of her arrival.

We've watched My amnesia girl ,poster on top, a funny Filipino film about two lovers Apollo and Irene,same name with the person Im with that time, but the thing is, the girl suddenly had an "amnesia" because of certain reasons but as you watch the movie there will be a twist. Anyways the movie was fun to watch i really enjoyed it; it even made me laugh almost all of the time.

After watching I accompanied her in the dept store because she has something to do there. After that we went to mcdo(centro) to eat our snacks after that i again accompanied her to Master Square because she needs to inquire about the cage of dogs there. After that we parted ways at 5:46pm(in my time) because she will hear mass at 6 pm. I heard mass too at 6pm after that and even saw my colleagues and went to sm after the mass.

When i got home, something got into me, waaaaaaah I forgot to buy my pet dog's food and a medicine which my mother asked me to buy .. haizt "naaliw ata " haha..

That experience was new to me technically, because Im into solo mode in watching movies etc. I like the experience though, it's more happier pala if your with someone its just that it is "magastos" sorry i forgot what is the equivalent of that in english anyways thats it..

Thanks again ate Irene next time it will be your treat naman :)
" You can call it selfish if you want, But "self " is the center of the universe.. Even giving voluntarily to others is " selfish" in a way because you "get" a good feeling in return..."